Feeling MUCH better

Well I'm feeling a hell of a lot better since my last post.

Since we got back from Melbourne I have been battling with a neck and shoulder 'problem', so finally decided to get that looked at. The Osteopath I found nerby is WONDREFUL. She practices Homeopathy, so believes in healing the WHOLE self, not just the physical. She is a qualified Chiroprator, Counselor, Self Healing Guide, Acupuncturist......HEAPS of things.

So not only is she adjusting my neck, she's adjusting my thinking around a few things.

One of the biggest things we discussed was Christmas, and my dislike for it. Well, it's not that I don't like Christmas, I LOVE CHRISTMAS, but more like the stress of December in general. She has helped me work through my issues, and help me wit hthe fact that they are MY issues (which I knew, but it helps to have someone tell you). It's just nice to be able to talk to someone who doesn't know the people you are talking about, or the 'instances', as they have a fresh outlook, and no bias in my favour like a friend would.

I have to explain our Christmases as I don't want anyone thinking that I hate spending time in Melbourne with our families. Given that we live in another state, they are as perfect as we can hope. We spend the time staying at my in-laws, which is great for Ardyn, as she gets to spend a good amount of quality time with her grandparents who she doesn't see all that often. Then we go to my brother's house on Christmas Eve for the Berg Family Christmas which is a great time, as we can't all get together as a family very often. Then we get up on Christmas Day and Ardyn get's to see what Santa has brought her. It's lovely that my in-laws get to see that too, as that's something that most grandparents wouldn't normally be a part of. Then Kathy and Alan put on a feast like you wouldn't believe for thr whole DeForest clan. If you have a particular whim, it's catered for. It's extraordinary! As a matter of fact I lectured Cal this year that we don't appreciate it enough - it's sometimes taken for grated by us all. They go to such an effort to make it a great day, and we ALL need to appreciate what thay do. It's not just that one day (I know, because we're in the house for the lead-up). All in all, it's a very busy, but fantastic couple of days.

It's a busy time, but I get even busier in my head, as I always try to make sure that the gifts that we give are "just right", and I guess I get guilty that we don't contribute and I feel that we are 'lumping' ourselves on everyone at this busy time. Both sides of the family. But it's pressure that I put on myself, not that's put on me by others. It's something that I have to deal with. I'll get there.

So we have worked on some realxation techniques too, which are helping me sleep better, much better, and getting me organised. She has actaully given me techniques for sleeping through Cal's snoring!!! Shock!!!! So I am feeling much more on top of things.

I'm still not sure about my creative urges, they don't seem to be returning just yet, but I'm going to talk to her about that tonight. She touched on it last week, but didnt' go in depth, we discussed more along the lines of my need to sleep, and cope with the pressures that I PUT ON MYSELF.

Yes, I admit it, I put pressure on myself. I always believe that people have these high standards (for want of a better word) that I don't meet for some reason, and bust my arse trying to make them happy and impress them. But my life is about making me happy, and my husband, and my children, and not trying to impress others...........I'm going to take a leaf out of Rach's book and not worry about what other people think so much. Just that I'm happy, my family is happy, and that we are all well.

Don't I sound much more sane???
The bottom line is that right now, at this second, I am happy. And can't complain about anything. I feel relaxed and at ease. And I'll get through that list of things to do when I do.

K xx